3/23/2026 TwT - I keep having dreams I go thrifting with my best friend and in the thrift store we always head towards the electronics area and look at different flip phones, cameras, and such.. I so so badly want a Kyocera.. I keep having constant dreams about it ;u; .. also.. I keep getting excited about being able to work on my website but then I remember I have college to worry about :( i have a very hard time doing 2 things at once- especially when it comes to school.. im very distracted most the time and get sidetracked. its very tough at times. but i will keep going and try my best..... as i always have!! if youre reading this, i hope you know youre doing great, i believe in you.!

W3Schools isactually freaking amazing.. cuz holy moly its been helping me continue to code things on my site- or at least learn how to code certain things/different tags and such!

3/24/2026 >.< - haii!! last night i was carving a wood log to make a "tool" to bait worms from the ground :O .. it didnt work but i think it may be the conditions! its so interesting how different creatures respond under certain circumstances.. ilove earth..

3/30/2026 :( [vent] hello.. its been very rough these past 2 days... a stray dog came along so i decided to feed her and give her water. she ended up staying on my porch so i felt terrible not being able to bring her in. i currently already have a dog so i didnt know how theyd get along. i had a breakdown cause she had nowhere to go.. im very sensitive when it comes to dogs because i treat my current one as if he was my son. i was very distraught and upset and eventually did let her inside. they got along and were playing but my dog started to hump her. i got sad again because i wasnt sure what to do for a little.. i searched up what i could do and it did work! but then it didnt.. and i had another breakdown. i know it sounds very silly and stupid but i cant control how i feel about this. but thankfully he stopped humping her and they started getting used to each other..but suddenly my dog got sick. (POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING FOR THE NEXT TOPICS) hes been constipated since this morning, he threw up, and there was a little blood in his stool. im very nervous he has worms. the stray seemed to have fleas but i genuinely thought it was going to be okay cause i could probably bathe them with special shampoo that combats fleas and ticks. im not sure what is wrong. his belly seemed a little bigger but nothing too much. i also suspect it was the food we made cause the cauldo we had contained a bit of pepper (green bell pepper and mini sweet pepper), i had only given him some broth from that dish and rib bones. i hope to God it was just the cauldo. something else to point out was that he had yiped when my someone was i think rubbing his belly (i didnt see but i heard it and my dad let me know that his belly was being rubbed or something) my dog is currently just laying down and looks okay so i pray it was indigestion. (if youre wondering why we didnt just take him to the vet; its because we cant afford to) i know this situation seems stupid and preventable. i feel terrible about it. sadly i left the stray on the porch and she continues to whine to come back inside. she stays there and it pains me. ive been trying to post on social media to see if someone can house her or something. i havent found an owner or anythng yet. she had only recently showed up this week according to my neighbors. i believe she was dumped. i hope someone gives her a wonderful life. it hurts because she wont leave and she wants to be with me and my dog. she barks at other people but gets excited with me. i'm very stressed and sad

4/1/2026 hello.. update! i believe my dog has an intestinal blockage with the rib bone we gave him. i wasnt aware cooked bones could be harmful since usually my dog would just digest them. i regret hoping it was the cauldo because i didnt know it would be this bad. the stray is inside since i concluded it wasnt her getting him sick- she has no signs of worms. only fleas but i did give her a flea bath and such. my dog still hasnt been able to poop. we gave him canned pumpkin and chicken broth. he threw up the next morning but not too much.. im very worried and vets are so fucking expensive. ive looked around and called places. i feel hopeless. i cant apply to things like carecredit, scratchpay, or affirm.. life really sucks right now but i still pray he will be okay. oh and another thing. my dad's friend wants to take in the stray, which is awesome but i feel as if i cant be happy.. the weight of everything is terrible. but today i recived a gift card since i completed an important test and i plan to save the money on the Kyocera i want... i cant really save the money for the vet because its so out there. i pray for better days